Trying to Find Balance

Right now food is consuming my life. I think about little else. I am consumed with counting calories, looking for things to do so I don't eat and feeling guilty when I do eat. It's crazy! I long for a day when I can find more balance and no longer have to focus on every single bite of food I eat. I know that time is a long way away and it may get worse before it gets better but whew, I'm exhausted.

I'm counting calories to try and lose the 10% pre-op goal. I am also trying to implement things I know I will need to do post surgery. I have upped my protein intake considerably and am trying to follow the no drinking when eating rule. I have learned that I should not eat for 30 minutes before and 1 hour after eating. It will push food through to quickly and I won't feel full. This one is soooo hard!! I have always had a drink with meals and it's tough not too. The last thing I am trying to do is the hardest. I am cutting out the foods I probably won't be able to eat once my lap band is in place. The social worker told me that any food that I could take in my hand and squish into a ball will most likely not work with the band. This includes but is not limited to; pasta, bread, rice, bagels, muffins, some wraps, and, my favorite, cake! Wow, so many of those foods are my go-to comfort foods. I am trying to learn to live without them and that is a mental shift as well. I don't need FOOD for comfort. Aaaahhhh....so much to process.

OK, I'm off to bed while I feel full.....MUST FALL ASLEEP BEFORE HUNGER CREEPS IN!!!!
(BTW, have you seen the new Weight Watchers Momentum program commercials??? I love the way they portray hunger-so right on!!)