Saturday, June 6, 2009


I've been in a funk all week. I'm not even enjoying my own company, bah. There are many contributing factors but I won't bore you with my ho-hum blah-ness. Instead, I'll update you on surgery.

First, I'm still waiting to hear what the insurance company has decided. I hope it doesn't take too long to get word.
Second, I saw my primary care doc. and she put me on BP meds to help with the insurance approval. Truth is I kind of needed them anyway but just hate being on meds.
Third, I got my paperwork in the mail and have a pre-op assessment on June 23rd which is also the same day I start my pre-op diet (more on that next time) and the same day big guy starts t-ball. I'll get weighed that day and if I have gained since my last weigh in they cancel my surgery. UGH. It's just so stressful. I did not eat well this week and put on a few pounds so today I went back to making careful decisions in the food department. I have 2 full weeks until then so I know I'll knock off the few I re-gained and I hope to lose a few more. I know I CAN and WILL do it but sometimes it's so all consuming it makes me want to ScReAm!

So that's where things stand for now. I'm trying to wrap my head around this whole process. Right now I'm focusing on pre-op diet and recovery. It's a lot to think about.

Monday, June 1, 2009

The Results Are In

My appointment at Casco Bay Surgery today went very well. I was 5 pounds below the goal they set for me when I weighed in. Yay! The surgeon said I was doing an awesome job losing weight. Yay!!! The only quasi bad thing was that the surgeon is concerned that I am not on blood pressure medication and need to be for it to count as a co-morbidity for insurance approval. SO I emailed my primary care doc and we'll see what she says. I don't think it will be a big deal. After meeting with the surgeon I scheduled my surgery!!!! Pending insurance approval I will go under the knife on Tuesday the seventh of July. My pre-op diet will start on June 23rd, whoa. SO, I have 3 weeks until I start pre-op.....crazy. I'm happy and excited and nervous and scared and all those things rolled up into one.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Freaking Out

Tomorrow is the day, the meeting with my surgeon. What has me stressed out though is the damn weigh in. Last week was a bounce back up and plateau week for me and I sat right around 280 all week instead of 278. So the past few days I really pushed hard and this morning I was back to 278.4. Great. Then we went to Story Land with the kids. We had so much fun but the food there s not diet friendly. I ended up eating 2 soft tacos for lunch. They had very little cheese, no sour cream and were mostly lettuce and tomatoes with a little meat thrown in. I snagged a few french fries (6~tops) from the kids and that was it. Tonight for dinner I picked up a rotisserie chicken and had some chicken over salad with fat free dressing. I am completely stressed out that the tacos, 6 fries and few bite of chicken skin are going to throw the scale off come tomorrow. Help!! Talk me down!! All I want to do is eat right now, I'm guessing just because I know I can't. I'm a wreck.....seriously and will probably spend the rest of the night on the scale stressing out.