I've been sitting at 286 for quite some time now longing to be back at my low of 282. I finally budged the scale (in the right direction) and am at 285. It was hard won and I hope it stays gone forever. Staying busy is key to my losing weight and thankfully I've been busy this week. Tomorrow I am off for a hike with the kids and friends so that should keep that pound at bay.
Good bye pound.....you are not needed here anymore......go find someone else's ass to sit on :)
Back in January I revealed a secret http://cookiescakesandshakes.blogspot.com/2009/01/shhh.html. In January, I felt like I did not fit in with the preschool mom set. Now?? Well, now I am proud to report that those ladies are some of my closest friends. I am one of a small group of ladies who gets together frequently, with kids and without :) I still have moments of insecurity with them, who doesn't? Are they trying to tell me something when they straighten my hair and tell me how pretty it is? Is there a hidden message behind talking about cleaning their houses? Sigh, that's OK, I'm pretty sure it's just me being insecure. I try to put the insecurities behind and just have fun because life is short and I feel like I am just starting to really live.
I've been on this journey for quite some time. I have been trying to lose weight nearly all of my life and I started on the lap band journey last November. I'm getting close to, I hope, surgery but as was expected some of my supporters have wained. Some were never really supporters at all, they said they were, then they ate donuts while I sat and watched. Others, still claim to be supportive, but suggest we get ice cream for dinner, repeatedly. It's so hard, I get it. No one can be as consumed with it on a daily basis as I am. It is nice however that some of my friends are still talking about it with me and are proud of me for what I am doing. I got teary the other day after hearing my friends talking about it while we were all together. They were so positive and encouraging. One admitted she wished she could better understand what I was going through but just couldn't. I get that too. I wish I could understand how being 5'9" and 100 pounds is fat. We all have our issues.......
So to my friends (you know who you are) thank you. Thank you for not making me feel fat, for loving me for who I am, for reminding me that I still have people in my corner, and most of all for being there. You ladies are the best!