Saturday, December 27, 2008

Saturday Secret

I will be posting a secret, just not today. The cold that has been running through my home has finally taken me down. I just took some Nyquil and am heading to bed. Stay tuned.....

Friday, December 26, 2008

How Quickly the Body Forgets

Yesterday I ate some not-so-healthy food. It was all stuff I used to eat and I used to eat a lot more of it but yesterday my body was not happy. By late afternoon yesterday I felt like crap. My stomach hurt, I was nauseous and the mere mention of food made me sick. How quickly your body adjusts to dietary changes. I can only assume that the reason for feeling ill involved gravy, real butter, a soda, and pie. I didn't eat a ton of any of those mentioned but a little was enough. I couldn't eat the rest of the day. It's hard to remember that this will happen, hard to make that mental change.

I am excited to eat healthy today and feel better!!!

Wednesday, December 24, 2008


The scale is moving again! This morning I was at 292.6 which if you check out my ticker means I have lost 13.4 pounds!! Yay! I am almost halfway to my pre-op goal. I probably won't get on the scale for the next few days. While I don't plan to over indulge for Xmas I do plan to have a few treats. See you all soon!

Monday, December 22, 2008


Do you stress eat? I do. Not as much as I used to, I learned a lot of coping skills in therapy but I still do it from time to time. I have friends who can't eat when stressed, I wish I were that lucky.

Today I stress ate. I didn't sleep well last night thanks to little guy getting up several times and the plow guy needing me to move my car around midnight. In total I got about 4 hours of sleep and was just exhausted come morning. So I started the day out on the wrong foot, in the wrong mood.

The day didn't get much better.

Mid-morning big guy started crying and complaining of ear pain. We ended up at the pediatrician and big guy has a full blown about to rupture ear infection in one ear. Little guys ears are red too. So off we went to the pharmacy to stand and wait 20 minutes for amoxicillin. Once home big guy had had enough and his behavior showed it. He was hurting and taking it out on everyone. Not a pretty sight.

In the midst of all of this I forgot to eat when I was supposed to and ended up grabbing things that were quick and easy when I could. It led to overeating and what I like to call crap eating. I turned to some comfort foods, chocolate chip granola bars for one and just didn't do what I was supposed to do health wise for the day.

Now, I am disappointed in myself but I know that identifying and admitting my problem areas is a good first step. I also keep saying something my therapist taught me. Instead of focusing on the things that went wrong focus on "the next right thing".

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Sunday Success Story

This week it is not a scale success, that remains unchanged. I'd like to say I am surprised but I am not. I have been eating healthy this week but eating more than I should. So....not a surprise at all.

My success story involves middle of the night munchie madness. For years now, since my first son was born, I have been munching in the middle of the night. At first I did it when he was a wee one and waking several times a night. I hadn't always had time during the day to eat so I would snack after getting him back to sleep. Sometimes I would snack to keep myself awake while feeding him. Often my snack was peanut butter cups. For some reason I craved peanut butter cups like no one's business when I was post partum with big guy.

The trend continued for quite some time. At one point the apartment we lived in had a kitchen right next to big guys room. I rarely snacked then for fear of waking him up. It was a good thing.

Along came little guy....... I nursed little guy and it made me ravenous!!! I was eating all the time and LOSING weight! It was wonderful. We moved to our new place and the kitchen is not near the bedrooms AND you have to walk through it to get to the bathroom. That is a problem. I would get up at least once a night and snack. Not on apples and oranges mind you but on convenience foods like cookies, candy, and sometimes ice cream. My mother in law bakes often and that is bad. We often have homemade whoopie pies and peanut butter rice krispie treats covered in chocolate in our fridge. UGH.

So this week I said no. NO! I have not had a midnight, or 2, or 4AM snack. That my friends is success!