Monday, January 5, 2009

Trying to Find Balance

Right now food is consuming my life. I think about little else. I am consumed with counting calories, looking for things to do so I don't eat and feeling guilty when I do eat. It's crazy! I long for a day when I can find more balance and no longer have to focus on every single bite of food I eat. I know that time is a long way away and it may get worse before it gets better but whew, I'm exhausted.

I'm counting calories to try and lose the 10% pre-op goal. I am also trying to implement things I know I will need to do post surgery. I have upped my protein intake considerably and am trying to follow the no drinking when eating rule. I have learned that I should not eat for 30 minutes before and 1 hour after eating. It will push food through to quickly and I won't feel full. This one is soooo hard!! I have always had a drink with meals and it's tough not too. The last thing I am trying to do is the hardest. I am cutting out the foods I probably won't be able to eat once my lap band is in place. The social worker told me that any food that I could take in my hand and squish into a ball will most likely not work with the band. This includes but is not limited to; pasta, bread, rice, bagels, muffins, some wraps, and, my favorite, cake! Wow, so many of those foods are my go-to comfort foods. I am trying to learn to live without them and that is a mental shift as well. I don't need FOOD for comfort. much to process.

OK, I'm off to bed while I feel full.....MUST FALL ASLEEP BEFORE HUNGER CREEPS IN!!!!
(BTW, have you seen the new Weight Watchers Momentum program commercials??? I love the way they portray hunger-so right on!!)


  1. Keep up the good work, Colleen! Remember eventually all these things will become much more routine and not dominate things so. I'm proud of you!

  2. Thanks for the helpful tip about the connection between drinking and sense of fullness--I didn't know that!