Saturday, July 18, 2009

Goals

I thought it would be a good time to sit down and write out the goals I have in terms of weight loss. According to the bariatric center and the "average" weight loss they expect me to get to around 200 pounds as a goal. I was fine with that before losing 45 pounds on my own. Now I see 200 as a short term goal and ultimately I'd like to get to 150-175. I know it will be a lot of hard work but I'm up to the challenge. To break it down further here are my short term goals:
245 by Aug 17 (post op appts and first fill)
225 by Halloween
210 by Xmas
206 by Jan 11-my bday-I'd LOVE to be done 100 pounds by then!!!!

Most of these goals are based on losing 2 pounds a week. 1-2 pounds a week is average for a bander so I am shooting for the high end here but I have high hopes.

(disclaimer: while I know I will be disappointed if I don't hit the goals I also know that it's OK. Really, as long as the scale moves in the right direction, no matter how fast or slow I will be happy)

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

One Week

One week after surgery and I feel good! I wake up pain free and remain so for most of the day. Usually starting around dinner time I start to ache around my port area and if I do anything at night it hurts enough to say ouch when move but not really need any meds. I can sleep on my stomach and have been since a few days post op, phew! Food is still a challenge. I just made it through a lovely round of PMS when I was stuck on liquids so I'd say that's a success! This first week I lost around 6 pounds and I haven't really devoted any time to exercise yet. I was really busy and I know that helped but I also know that when I start walking again it should help even more. I hope to start that tomorrow, tonight I have t-ball with big guy :)

Last night I spent some time re-reading old blog posts. I cried. It's amazng to me what can change in 8 months. I have come so far and am so proud of myself. I struggled for a few months in the middle there but I didn't give up and here I am today. I am stronger than I ever knew. I am so much happier at the weight I am at now than I was 50 pounds ago. I know I have a long way to go but it feels good to be comfortable in my own skin again.

I'm thankful I hit rock bottom, I'm thankful I had a friend talk about wanting lap band surgery (thanks Jules!!), I'm thankful for every minute of ths journey and I am thankful to have all of you by my side.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Wow





50 pounds gone forever, amazing. I have never, ever, lost that much weight. It's exciting and motivating. Another 50 and I'll be the same size I was sophmore year of college when I thinned out for a year (maybe less). I loved that time, I was a size 16 and could shop just about anywhere. Yay!!