Temptation Cometh

I have to get weighed on Monday and I have been busting my butt to lose the weight I had re-gained after my last fill. Then this food walks in the door.


My mom. She means well, I swear she does. They are supposed to be treats for the kids. I know, I know, no kid needs that many treats but I tell ya, she means well. This is not a post flaming mom for her need to feed my kids......it's about temptation. All of those foods call to me. They talk to me at midnight,2AM,4AM and just about every time I walk into the kitchen. Sigh. Why don't the apples talk to me?

The Gym is Good

I made it to the gym three days this week. Now I know that's not heart stopping news or anything but as a stay at home mom to two boys I think I did well. I also played tennis one night, walked another and have plans for tennis or a walk again tonight. I like the gym, it feels good to get all sweaty and gross and feel like I accomplished something. I can do 20 minutes on the elliptical which works out to about 3.5 miles or so. I alternate my speed, per my trainers instruction, so sometimes I am really going for it and other's chugging along moderately. This week I also started in on the treadmill. I didn't think I would because I do still go for walks in the neighborhood but I'm glad I did. It's different walking on a treadmill and I get a better pace and have to keep it up or fall off, lol. Now that I am getting comfortable on a treadmill again I want to start jogging for chunks of time. My overall goal is really to be able to run a 5K. There is a runner trapped in this body and it's dying to get out!!

Speaking of running, Sarah, a fellow lap band blogger is training for her first 5K! She's so inspisring to me and I hate, hate, hate that she is down on herself right now. If you have time head on over and encourage her to keep running!!!

an open letter

Dear 5 uninvited pounds,

You are not welcome here. I don't like you, I don't want you, you can leave now. You were not invited to come back and reside on my waist, hips and thighs. In fact, I believe I threw you a lovely going away party the last time you left. Perhaps it was too nice of a party and you came back for more, won't happen.

I am doing my best to show you I am not a hospitable hostess. All that time on the elliptical, treadmill, and chasing balls around a tennis court is not your thing! You like couch lounging, cake tasting, and general laziness. Please find someone more your speed to reside on.

I will admit that occasionally I throw you a bone and feed you some of your favorite foods but please!!! I have not eaten nearly enough junk to warrant your stay for this long. 1000-1200 calories a day plus lots of exercise does not, I repeat not, warrant a weight gain.

So, 5 pounds, I suggest you pack up quickly and leave town. Feel free to take additional pounds with you. They will not be missed!

Busy

The scale is not my friend. The scale is not my friend. The scale is not my friend. OK, now that I have that out of my system I can move on. I've been falling off and climbing back on the wagon for a few weeks now. It's tiring. I have been doing well this week so far but the scale refuses to reflect those changes. I am still going to the gym (woohoo!). I went early early Monday AM and just got home from a mid day workout today. I also played tennis again Monday night. All that activity would surely move the scale. Nope.

Monday I have to go for my 3 month follow up at the Bariatric Center and at this point I know that I will have to explain a gain :( My worst fear. Oh well, people make mistakes, right? I've learned from mine and am doing my best to do what's right. That has to count for something.

On top of everything else I decided to go into the photography business. It's something I have always loved and I think I am pretty good at what I do, not great but pretty good. So I made a website and advertised on Craigslist as well as my Facebook page. I have 5 potential clients interested already. Wow! It's exciting and scary all at once. My photo site is http://www.myphotosbycolleen.blogspot.com/ if you are interested in checking it out. Hopefully I can make a go of this and earn a little money while doing something I am passionate about.