Ugh, I did it. I went to the store and bought chocolate! Sigh. I went to get some stuff for the house and picked up a bag of Dove Chocolates that I HAD to have. I cracked the bag open on the way home and ate a few and then hid it in my purse. The guilt ate away at me though and as soon as I got in the house I handed them over to S and told her to do away with them. Phew, that was a close one.
I've been having a hard time with food lately. The holidays, Grandma's passing, being off my schedule with big guy on school break, etc. etc. etc. All excuses, and poor ones at that. I know part of the problem was that I got weighed when I went to my appt. and my next appt. is the 15th. I have until then to lose more weight and in my mind that meant I could take a little break. I know, I know, not the right thing to do. It's just sooooo hard. Even the social worker was talking about how hard it is to be hungry ALL the time.
So I turned over the chocolates and I am planning a re commitment to the healthy eating plan tomorrow. I should probably hit the grocery store and stock up on some good for me food too. I am also hoping to get my exercise bike up from storage and get moving on that. I am sure that will help a lot.