Missing

A lot of things have been missing lately;
me-here
my motivation
any movement in the right direction on the scale

I haven't been around much lately. Honestly I've been avoiding you all and myself. I was doing really well on my diet and nothing was happening. Well, that's not true, I was gaining. I wasn't perfect with the diet but I was doing really well. So the other day I was fed up. I had Wendy's for lunch, homemade mac and cheese, and then cookie dough when I made cookies with my son. You know what? The scale was down 2.5 pounds the next day. WHY??? I hate my metabolism. I hate that I can eat so well and gain but then a day of crap eating and I lose. It really messes with you mentally. I know that I can't continue to eat crap, it doesn't work that way. ARGH!!

On another note I went out last night with the girls. It was a lot of fun!! I ate a few potato nachos and one piece of lobster quesadilla but after that I was good. I had a salad and water and a few grown up drinks. I was proud of myself for not gorging on the appetizers and for eating my salad and not wanting dessert! yay!

So here I go again, back on track, back to heading in the right direction, I hope. The weather today is amazing but my day is crazy full. Hopefully I'll get a good walk in at some point.

So I'm back, for better or for worse. Time to get this show on the road. This morning I was 284 so I am still +2 from my low but +2 is better than it was a few days ago. I'll take it. I also remind myself that I am +2 from my low but still down 22 overall. That's something to be proud of.